i am bored

i dont have work life balance......
so boring....
everyone of my girls....meet up please T^T

grow up?

我不想我不想不想長大
長大後世界就沒童話
我不想我不想不想長大
我寧願永遠都笨又傻

what were i doing last week?

the answer is:
BO~~~

i ZUO BO from 9AM- 6:30PM!!!!
the whole week...

cuz every of my colleagues were too busy...they didnt have much time to teach me....
and some of them asked me to enjoy my "zuo bo" situation......
cuz i will be super damn damn busy after that -___-"
every of my colleagues OT till 10 or 11pm de lo...
cuz they say they cannot finish their stuff.......(and sucks is, there is no OT pay...)

zuo bo for 9 hours...no msn no facebook...cannot tahan.........
not i dont dare to surf net
is because
there is no INTERNET in my maybank department....
only INTRANET!!!!!!!!!!
even google also cannot go -___-
even wana check dictionary also cannot go...damn it


haiz haiz haiz...i dont want to work...i wanna go home =(

sigh

start working tomorrow...
damn sienz...
please please please...i dont want to suffer insomnia today....i go work from jb tomorrow lo...
damn it
i need to act socialable right?
sienz sienz sienz....
ARG!!!!!

.....

" 做你的朋友很累"

i dont want to leave my home

well...amazingly....i got the offer from maybank...
although i am actually more interested in sentosa IR, i have to give up the interview opportunity, as i already signed the contract with maybank....
i dont have bonuses, as maybank dont give bonus....damn it.....
and feel like kena cheated -_-
just get the PR first la....haiz

the time i dont have the job, eagerly want a job
the time i have the job, eagerly pray that the start working day will not approach...
damn it
i am getting used to stay at my own home, my own room, my own bed...
just dont feel like leaving...i have the shit feeling same as 3 years ago, the time i was forced to leave my home in order to study in singapore...
and now i am forced to leave my home in order to work in singapore...
this is totally two different things....at least i can enjoy my long school break at home, but now, i have to wait long long then only have ONE day public holiday....
damn it

and i have a dog now....just dont want to leave my ah bu...what if he forgets me? my parents have to bare in mind that they cannot see their only daughter again.... but currently i am really not suitable to travel everyday... as my working time is 9-6:30 or 7. if i follow my dad's car, i will reach company at 7, and he has to wait for me to off till 7.... haiz.... is totally inconvenient for him... i think i stay at singapore first la, at least have to familiar with my stuff...then see if can travel a year later or not? go home during weekend then....

i dont want to leave my mum, dad, and ah bu..very much =(

damn it....why have i to be in this situation?

i am useless

i am the most useless people in this world..i am the WORST people in this world...
why do I keep losing things? i hate myself for being like this...
i already told myself, be careful, beware...and i already kept checking checking and checking..
i even put somewhere which was considered safe to me...and checked frequently whether it was still there...
i know i cannot lose that things, i know it is very important to me...
i already put my efforts not to lose it...i did...
but, i am useless...i lost..
and i lost something that is on my "die die cannot lose" checklist...
i am very very very angry for myself, and i am very very sad.....
why do I keep losing things??
i am very very very sorry....i know it is too late.. i am useless