give and take

i know i broke the committment
u asked me to understand

yes, i know i am wrong....
but
please understand my situation too

if we are not close enough, i can just leave without giving u any notices, without worrying everything
i didnt have to worry that u will need to pay full amount, or nowhere to live....
but i didnt......
dun wan to make you in trouble, that's why i keep wasting my money....

but, i am in dilemma too.......
stop, u will hate me
continue, i am wasting my money

if u were me? what will you do?
not i didnt try to get used to it.....but the feeling is really not right....and my insomnia is getting serious.....
i didnt know it will happen when i was there too
i didnt know i will call off before 1 year too.....

i know u offered me... u gave up ur freedom to offer me.....
thank you....
that's why i am very guilty....
full payment is really a huge amount.....i know
but
please try to understand
for me, wasting for 9 months, is a huge amount too....

and the feeling of paying for other's sake, is terrible too...
not i am not generous of letting ur important ppl to stay
i just need some respect........
although i keep saying i do not mind, but a discussion with me before you decided will be appreciated

let's split the burden can?
i cover 3 months, u try to find the solution for the next 3 months
give and take.....
please....