i dont want to leave my home

well...amazingly....i got the offer from maybank...
although i am actually more interested in sentosa IR, i have to give up the interview opportunity, as i already signed the contract with maybank....
i dont have bonuses, as maybank dont give bonus....damn it.....
and feel like kena cheated -_-
just get the PR first la....haiz

the time i dont have the job, eagerly want a job
the time i have the job, eagerly pray that the start working day will not approach...
damn it
i am getting used to stay at my own home, my own room, my own bed...
just dont feel like leaving...i have the shit feeling same as 3 years ago, the time i was forced to leave my home in order to study in singapore...
and now i am forced to leave my home in order to work in singapore...
this is totally two different things....at least i can enjoy my long school break at home, but now, i have to wait long long then only have ONE day public holiday....
damn it

and i have a dog now....just dont want to leave my ah bu...what if he forgets me? my parents have to bare in mind that they cannot see their only daughter again.... but currently i am really not suitable to travel everyday... as my working time is 9-6:30 or 7. if i follow my dad's car, i will reach company at 7, and he has to wait for me to off till 7.... haiz.... is totally inconvenient for him... i think i stay at singapore first la, at least have to familiar with my stuff...then see if can travel a year later or not? go home during weekend then....

i dont want to leave my mum, dad, and ah bu..very much =(

damn it....why have i to be in this situation?

i am useless

i am the most useless people in this world..i am the WORST people in this world...
why do I keep losing things? i hate myself for being like this...
i already told myself, be careful, beware...and i already kept checking checking and checking..
i even put somewhere which was considered safe to me...and checked frequently whether it was still there...
i know i cannot lose that things, i know it is very important to me...
i already put my efforts not to lose it...i did...
but, i am useless...i lost..
and i lost something that is on my "die die cannot lose" checklist...
i am very very very angry for myself, and i am very very sad.....
why do I keep losing things??
i am very very very sorry....i know it is too late.. i am useless

stop please -___-

i dont know what had happened to me -__-

i think the reason is, i am too free, too bored....that's why i will come out with this one...

yeah, i baked again -__-

thia times was cupcakes.... and my beater was broken...it was smoking....i think it SOT liao.... and it had a high probability to happen a bomb +___+

so that i have to use my bare hand to mix....

i added raisin and chocolate chips, tasted good =D hahahaha...actually i intended to make a decoration for the cupcakes, as the cute and pretty cupcakes nowadays are very popular...but....i was really too lazy after baking...and no beater...so too bad...hahaha

it tasted very very nice =)

CSJ, stop baking, pls............

my honey!!!!!!

haha, finally meet up my dear dear honey......well, her name is really "honey"...

we have never met since 2 years ago...hahaha...finally =)

this gathering got 4 people, which all were my REAL BUDDIES!!!!!

jianlin, mengchin, honey and i...too bad meijin's boss was torturing her....didnt want to let her go...otherwise we would have full amount....(how about hui ing ler...hmmm)

we met at lavender jusco....there were many mirrors, i like that place!!! can take picture.....hahaha....but too bad, my tuna croissant was out of order -_-

true buddies gathering, next time all 5 ppl must come ah.....=)

cookies and huat kueh day =D

after my sorbet and muffie session...i feel like doing others.....although i think baking is a tiring job (-__-)

so i bought the cookie mixed flour from jusco...because...it will be more convenient than mix the flour myself....hahaha.....(because i am lazy lar...hahaha)

i only need to add one more egg and the butter together with my cookie mixture.....then distibuted it on my baking plate, decorated with chocolate chips..... and actually it was done =_+ really damn easy.......

although it didnt look appealing...but not that bad la....hahaha

then he told me he was going to bake huat kuih....but actually i was busy with my cookies..how did he do that...i really have no idea.....hahaha....i only knew that, he kept stirring stirring and stirring...and even asked for beater.....i got la...but spoilt...to bad la....hahahaha.....then he steamed it...after 15 minutes....it huat liao.....my mum did see the huat-ting kuih, and tasted it.....haha, she won her lottery the next day =D

nice nice muffie =D

first of all, what is muffie?


it is the combination of muffin and cookies...hahaha
(actually he wanted to do muffin...but.... ahem..=P)
he anyhow bought the ingredients, anyhow read the instruction and anyhow baked....all of us actually thought that he would not be able to succeed.......haha.....kept pouring him cold water =p

i brought 4 back without testing....because it was very rush for me+_+...hahaha....AND... my parents commented that the muffie was very nice.....and INDEED, it was really very nice!!!! thank you =D
looking forward for your NEXT baking =)
i really really love it!!! =D

sleepless night

i think i drank too many green tea -_-

and the bed is not comfortable...

i had a sleepless night again =((

(luckily weiyang was still online at 4am..hahaha, thank you=>)

hopeless

it has been a week.......still havent received any calls from Maybank....the result is quite clear.....
i am not selected....am i?
disappointed...haiz

sorbet making =)

i used the RM15 dessert recipe book which i bought in fy last saturday!!! at least my RM15 is not wasted......hahahahaha

the first (or last?? ) dessert i made is strawberry sorbet.....because it looks the easiest...hahaha

the ingredients include: lemonade (actually recipe states lemon juice -_-), 80g icing sugar, 4 teaspoons of strawberry jam (yeah, it is JAM -_-), 360g water, another 50g water....boiled the sugar with the 50g water...then mixed everything together in one container..then freezed overnight...

the next day, took the frozen strawberry mixture to the blender....blended until fluffy then freezed it until firm again....

that's all...hahaha...DONE!!

it tasted GOOD!!!

wahahahahaha

foonyew 96 happy birthday =D

today is foonyew's 96 anniversary......9:30am, mingsean and kaipik came my house to fetch me...we reached foonyew at 10am, then met weijian.....mingsean was forced to buy 3 detergents from s2ac2's junior.. too bad lo, had to support...poor ah sean....hahahathen we found ah tee (oh no, forgot to take pic with her)....then she forced four of us to buy RouRou...=(( (luckily kuan kuan was sold out...hahaha)

today was a raining day...and everyone of us was caught in the rain...(shit..i am not feeling very well now....and foonyew is h1n1 infection area lo.....i am so scared now =(( )today is a small s3ac2 gathering, we got 8 persons, which were mingsean, kaipik, weijian, jianlin, kaixuan, meijin, yuenchung and i......we did support ah lan and ah liao's stall.....wasei, ah lan was very hardworking ler.....non stop helping de lo......her class was really lucky to have this class teacher.....we met ah bin, ah hao. ah liao, ah lan, a zhu, headmistress.....and saw miss chong, mr goh...ah bin's health is ok liao la...but ah zhu's situation is not very ok...haiz...worried =(we intended to have our lunchbox outside of the discipline office...end up we saw ah liu...very scared, end up we moved to guang qian hall....as there were many tables for the thousand ppl dinner tonight..we thought we were being chased by the prepared teachers there, end up, they just advised us to throw the lunchbox after eaten =s (being the alumni really got a lot of benefits...hahaha)haiz...i miss old times....miss the time we were in school....i miss those teachers very much too =(we tried very hard to spend money there...although there was really nothing for us to buy =send up i bought 2 ballons...in order to spend my remain coupons -_-"

(i used RM15 for a recipe book, i really sot liao +_+)

after that, all of us except meijin and yuenchung moved to tebrau city jusco.....and hsienyong came to meet us, we had tea anc chit chatted at old town coffee...i think we sat there for too long, the ppl there kept giving hints to us to chase us out +_+this was a happy gathering!!!! hope all of us can gather more!!!!!!!!
i love S3AC2!!! love you guys many many many =D

happy gathering

today gathered with shirley, ellie and siao wei.....

fun k day =)

neway's menu changed, it doesnt have my favourite black pepper chicken rice anymore....

never mind la, everytime eat this dishes also sienz...

i ordered sour spicy chicken rice....(with a sunshine egg o) it is nice, but too spicy for me =s

the rest of them ordered tomyam soup....shirley said it is awful...hahaha

then shirley and ellie gave me the Harry Potter they bought at Aussie land...hahaha, so happy =)

thank you thank you thank you...i really LOVE it!!!!!! hahahahaha

we sang from 2:30pm to 6pm.....(cuz neway no business...=p) hahahaha

RM21 per pax.....because got 3 bowls of shit RM8 peanuts....(but we were still using student card...although all of us have graduated =p)

i really love K!!!!!!!!!!!

and i love you all, my dear friends =D

let's come out again, ok????? hahaha

kena kissed

today when my mum went to molek buying her organic stuff....i was in music centre waiting for her to fetch me...

after she reached, she showed an angry face...and said, our car was knocked by someone....

she said, when she was reversing...the ppl on the back was also reversing his car...then my mum gave him a horn, he stopped reversing...but 5 seconds later, started his reversing again...

of course

who knows that person will only stop for 5 seconds?

our car was knocked..........

my mum was super super super super angry....i believe she wanted to scold that guy....

luckily the guy was very patient, and willing to compensate us.... he apologized and said that he did not notice...., ok lo...since he is willing to compensate...

but...our car is NEW car ler.....less than one year only == his car is VOLVO lo, our poor HONDA.... T^T

ps: actually, i scratched my mirror two days ago, now can repaint again, haha =p

one of my important person in my life =))

today went molek with my mum, as she wanted to buy the organic stuff.....

then i followed her, so that i can visit my Miss Yap, who is my piano teachers for 8 years...

i have never gone back to find her for 2 years....feel guilty =s as she is really an important person in my life, without her, i may not be able to complete my Grade 8 piano and theory....

and...the person I am afraid of the MOST...is not my mum... but her...when she shouted at me, i would cry IMMEDIATELY....hahahahahahahaha (cuz i always didnt practice at home..haha)

i remember her birthday is around august, so i went Lavender to buy her a fruit cake...actually i was craving for chocolate or coffee flavour...but i remember she doesnt like black cake =_=

(and my leftover RM100 pocket money each month, only left RM50 -_-)

i went inside the music centre, Miss Choo, the important admin in the centre, stunned....and said..."who is this"....when i stood in front of her, she said, "aiyo, siew juan ahhh"

hahaha, so happy =)

then i quickly asked her to lower her voice, as i wanted to ask her to borrow me the lighter...

but, my Miss Yap immediately came out from lesson after heard Miss Choo's voice...

hahaha

i believe Miss Yap felt very touch, and we even called all the piano teachers out to sing birthday song to her....(btw, all the piano teachers are in lesson actually+_+)

and actually...her birthday is on august 29....totally too early for celebration liao...haha (because i have never remembered the exact date since 10 years ago =p, from now, i will remember la..hahaha)

i miss my piano learning, piano stress, piano gangs, my Miss Yap..i miss old times.....

got it =D

last week i went for appeal my PR invitation letter.....

i attached with all my supporting documents, such as degree scroll, transcript, UEC, LCCI, 1119, and even foonyew's senior 3 years result slip.....and wrote a letter (actually i am not the writer -_-)...together with the appeal form, passed to the ICA officer....

one week after, i received my PR INVITATION LETTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haiz...i think i am really suey, as most of the local U grad will receive it, but me......

i have to appeal myself, put many efforts before getting it....really suey...haiz

but, no matter how, i still got it! hooray =D

ps: fuhao, appeal works, add oil!!!

i screwed up myself

3rd interview...maybank
haiz....
this interview is so so so so so so important to me.....
as a finance student, of course i wish to work in a bank...and especially, a malaysia bank...
but i think, i really screwed up my interview....i admit i performed very bad....
when i were in the waiting area, i saw many people (2 and above) flipping my resume and application form...check from the first alphabet to the last alphabet....flipped to the next page, next page, next page, then came to the first page again...for many many times -_-
there were 3 interviewers, one HR, two heads of the department....(i was shocked when i stepped into the room)
i forgot what did they ask, and what did i reply....(selectively forgot...as i really dont wish to recall T^T), i only know that, i performed DAMN BAD!!! i think the answer i gave is the worst answer in this world....and they totally didnt show any interested....
HR's face remained black all the time......one head of department keep shooting me, the other one is better...at least i can see some sincerity=S
i applied 5 posts in Maybank... which are Business Process Analyst, Executive: market risk, Executive: operational risk, Executive: credit risk and Customer service executive
(actually i am more interested in the risk management area, customer service is also ok for me...)
during the interview, i showed how much passion i have in the field of finance.....then end up, they asked, do you know which post u are interviewed? (i thought they were interviewing me all the 5 posts actually)
they were actually interviewing me the Business Process Analyst...(which is not related to the finance area.....but the operations area...) then one second after, i showed how much passion i have in the operations side....shit.....screw up....haiz
the HR even told me that she mentioned before...(no, she never) T_T

overall, i think my answer offended them T^T
die die die die~~~~~~~~~~~~
if they will hire me, i think the moon will fall from the sky +_+
totally HOPELESS...........

although i really wish to work in maybank, haiz haiz haiz....

ah bu first vet visiting

today woke up early, checked up with my ahbu...he was fine in the morning already.....
i think he recovered, but mum and i still decided to bring him to vet, for safety.
by the way, the veterinarian is beside xie shao guang's vegetarian shop....)
he said, ah bu is about 5 weeks old and suffered gam jek...which means there is a worm inside ah bu's stomach.....
vet diagnosed that he was spread by his mother... he gave ah bu some medicine......
basically, should be recovered soon........
we intended to let ah bu have a preventive inoculation, which means injection la....but vet told me that ah bu just had medicine, inappropriate for him to have it....
so we were asked to go to visit vet next week.....each injection cost RM50...ah bu needs to take three........-_- we also bought him dog food....the soft dog food, which suitable for ah bu~
luckily the bill is not that expensive, consulation=RM15, worm medicine=RM5, dog food=RM12, total RM35..... hahahahahahahahaha (i thought the bill will exceed RM100....heng ah~~~next week have to bring him for injection o....)
vet also told us that, ah bu doesnt have any type, which means, he is mixed dog (united nations -_-)...neither labrador nor chihuahua....he is just a NORMAL dog, NORMAL like the xiao3 huang2 by the roadside.......
feel sad, but i will still love him......never mind my ah bu is the most handsome xiao huang in the world =))

worried

ah bu is not feeling well ler...
he behaves different...he doesnt have the mood to play, and he didnt eat anything today..
we are afraid that, he might be ate something wrong........
he behaves weird....he was very noisy and energetic, if he felt tired, he would sleep in 1 second..
but now...
he is very queit, feels very sienz...and he just shuts his eyes, but doesnt sleep.....he looks like very very sick now.....

just now i went downstairs, he still has not slept... he saw me, walked towards me and leaned his head to my leg...then close his eyes.... i think he is asking for sayang~

shit...very xin1 tong4 ah~~~~~but there is no vet at night!!!!

ah bu~~ HANG ON THERE...tomorrow morning, mother and i will take you to vet...
add oil add oil!!!!!!!!!!

interview

yesterday went to Recruit Express for interview........

and i finally know why there is so many Recruit Express posts in JobsDB website

because, both of them are neighbours =s

Recruit Express company in the Jurong East JTC Summit building is TOTALLY opposite to the JobsDB company +_____+

thanks AhXiang, he introduced his school friend who is the recruiter in Recruit Express.......

otherwise, i will not have the opportunity to have my 2nd interview..haha

so, thank you AhXiang =))

his friend is very pretty o....i look like a small childish kid in front of her...=((

she gave me an interview, and told me there is an opportunity of a Dubai listed company, the position is accountant assistant, salary around 1.6 and 1.8k.......

i think i was gui3 zhe1 yan3...i rejected...+_____+ (OMG...i should get the interview first..shit)

i asked her whether can help me to request for at least 2k...(she said she will help me request though...she is really a good person...)

and she asked me, whether i am interested in the Recruit Express's recruiter....i said YES...(but hor, that job is damn stress de lo.........-_-)

but i am afraid that, my personality test shows me that i am not interested in recruiter's job...hahahahaa

so, in conclusion...

this interview no hope liao =((((((

my ah bu~~

my ah bu is very very cute ler.....

remember his first day was here...he kept barking, howling and crying...

now he is quite obedient already.....

but....

he keeps sleeping sleeping and sleeping... we afraid that he will suffer insomnia in the midnight.....then keep barking....

i should wake him up later......

at first, he doesnt know how to eat...now, he keep eating eating and eating.....

we are worried that he will become a fat ah bu ler............

the happiest thing in my boring life is ah bu's companion...hahaha