food craving

feel like eating expensive food.......
arh.....

whatever

initially, planned to go here, go there.....
planned to do this planned to do that.....
planned everything.....
but one last minute decision, all plans are gone...
all the expectations and hope are ruined...

maybe i am not so important that to be kept in mind..
thank you....

i broke my phone T___T

it just accidentally was fallen from my pocket....and dropped on the floor.....

now, the slide is the slide, the keypad is the keypad....two are mutual inclusive.....

not belong to each other anymore....

i am very very very very sad!!!! feel like crying nia~~~ wuwuwuwu~~~~~~~

i need to wait till august then my contract will be expired...then can only change phone ler =(

wuwu~~~~

my life had changed...

My life has started to changed. I was a happy JB kia. But everything had changed since i was graduated......
In foonyew, everyday, I went to school had lesson, every month had exams, quizzes...
I was stressed, but i had friends, teachers and happiness...
Everything had changed since I was gruaduated from fy....
I was wondering, why there is no good and famous uni at jb...and of course, kl is much more further that sg.....
due to sg uni is world ranked, i was forced to choose there...
so near yet so far...i was not able to travel everyday, so i stayed in sg...
had my life there, and only weekend can go home...
since when, i was so unfamiliarized with my own home?

in nus, i had lesson, cca and surrounded with friends.
evertthing is different
i started to have my life without the caring of my family...
slowly, i was already get used to the life
i can stay at sg alone with joyful activities,
i can youtube for the whole day,
when i was hungry, i can ask any of my friends to accompany me for dinner...
we had fun, we talked about exams,lectures, bf and cca...
i always stayled late, until 2am for msn, until 4am for supper and until 6am for chit chatting...
the only concern that time was exams, boring meetings and projects.
other that this, i was happy...and my life was filled with joyful
but
everything had changed since i was graduated from nus....
i was granted to stay at home for 3 months after 3 years leaving...
searching for jobs....and had the relax life...

after i got the job, everyday is filled with work, colleague, ot, work, colleague, ot, work colleague, ot
work at 9am off at 9pm
no life, no leisure, no excitement... sometimes, i even dreamt of office, colleagues and ot...

meet up with friends, the discussion topics are no longer exams, lectures, bf and cca
but works, salary, how long you ot, where you work, where you rent room, branded bags, iphone, bto and marriage.....
everything had changed.....

there is no routine and willingness to go back to sg after sunday every week...but hatred...

when studying, at least i know i still can come back every week, but now...
i have started to think that how long can i stay here..
my life had changed,
but
since when
i am willing to change my life?
since when
i have started to feel that
i am not happy?

craving....

feel like eating IKEA fish n chips.....
hmm.....................

give and take

i know i broke the committment
u asked me to understand

yes, i know i am wrong....
but
please understand my situation too

if we are not close enough, i can just leave without giving u any notices, without worrying everything
i didnt have to worry that u will need to pay full amount, or nowhere to live....
but i didnt......
dun wan to make you in trouble, that's why i keep wasting my money....

but, i am in dilemma too.......
stop, u will hate me
continue, i am wasting my money

if u were me? what will you do?
not i didnt try to get used to it.....but the feeling is really not right....and my insomnia is getting serious.....
i didnt know it will happen when i was there too
i didnt know i will call off before 1 year too.....

i know u offered me... u gave up ur freedom to offer me.....
thank you....
that's why i am very guilty....
full payment is really a huge amount.....i know
but
please try to understand
for me, wasting for 9 months, is a huge amount too....

and the feeling of paying for other's sake, is terrible too...
not i am not generous of letting ur important ppl to stay
i just need some respect........
although i keep saying i do not mind, but a discussion with me before you decided will be appreciated

let's split the burden can?
i cover 3 months, u try to find the solution for the next 3 months
give and take.....
please....

life

working life is sucks.....
i am tired......
tired everyday..........
i am feeling sick of having OT.......
feeling sick of going back to sg on monday 6am only for work........
i need a break....
i miss the time when i was doing nothing, everyday sleeping fb-ing, slacking at home
the two resting days for the whole week, is not enough for me.....
i want to stay at home
i want to accompany my family my dog
i want to play
i want to enjoy my life
hang out with friends
all of this cannot be done on the only two days.......

now, the ot life started over again.....
i just pray to leave at 7:30pm.....
i dun wan to stay till 10pm anymore.....
i am tired.....