好朋友：林殷龙同学

林老大，你也是我的好朋友哦。。。。。

记得3年前，你也在你游览人数多得不得了的部落格里称赞我，我就也顺便随便写写你啦。。。哈哈

认识你也超过7年了，我把你当成重要的好兄弟好姐妹哦！记得有些人问过我说，“你有没有很好的异性朋友？”，我的头脑就会闪过你的脸，“嗯，有啦有啦”所以，你是不是感到十分荣幸？哈哈。。

虽然我已经是就业人士，很少会与你讨论课业上、课外活动上的话题，也或许我们也已经逐渐疏远了。。。毕竟，一个在西边念书，一个在北部上班。。。虽然小红点是很小啦，明明要聚会并不是个问题，可是你懒我也懒，见面、深谈的机会已经变得可有可无了，可是，老娘还是挺你的啦。。虽然久久不见，可是我们吵架的默契还是好得不得了，这就是所谓，7年的老朋友吧！

拜托你吧，办多一点聚会，我还需要有个人来和我练习吵架的。。。

有什么事，记得分享哦，不要老是憋在心里。看到你现在拥有那么多朋友，也为你感到高兴，可是也别忘了我，ok? =）

祝福你，我人生中重要的老弟。六人行精神依然健在。 =）

好朋友：叶姗鸣同学

有谁何得何能，那么地于有荣焉地让我舍弃我那烂得半死的英文来描写？哈哈。。。就是那远赴过渡飘洋过海出国公干的好朋友啦。。。。

姗鸣同学，认识你已超过7年的时间。依稀还记得我们在文商二的种种场景。。。可是，真正让我们变得更加“好朋友”的是我们大学那三年的革命情感！记得我们大包小包的从马来西亚关卡一起摇着护照，带着忐忑不安的心情去参加迎新会。还记得，你的房间出现了怪声，我们在我那一眼就讨厌的宿舍房间里过了一夜。。。从此，我们开始了在独在异乡为异客的革命！哈哈！

最开心就是大二了，庆幸我换房成功，可以在拥有美嘉、慧雯、洁莹和你的环境下生活。。。最最最让我印象深刻地就是你的闹钟声了，响了整整半个多小时，要不是大家都还没睡，我看，整座宿舍的人，都会拿着菜刀往你的房里砍去。哈哈，那时的我，正在怀疑着，声音是否真的是从你房里传来的，毕竟，我们的房间还隔得蛮远的，怎么可能在房门锁紧的另一个遥远角落里的我，都听得见你的闹钟声呢？我犹豫的往你的房间走去，把耳朵贴近你的房门，果然是声音的发源地。手握着电话，心想，你应该是在外面吧，忘了调了闹钟，应该马上通知你才好。。。拨了你的号码，电话声也从你的房里传来，“不会吧，你在里面啊？”马上敲了你的门，大声地喊：“姗鸣！姗鸣！！”过了好几秒，你才睡眼惺忪的把门打开，

“老大啊，你的闹钟响了你听不到啊？”，
“哦哦，我小睡一下”，
“为什么你的闹钟这样大声的？”，
“哦哦，因为我有很多个闹钟，听不到。。”，
“可是你放了这样多个也还是听不到咧。很累得话，早点睡啦！”
“不了，我要起来做事情了。。。”
“蛤？现在是凌晨2点咧。。我要睡觉了咧”
“嗯咯，我要起来做东西了。”
“。。。。。。。。”


这是我们之间，很奇妙的小故事=）

从此以后，每当她从studio回来要小睡一下，都会来敲我的门跟我说，“秀娟啊，你要睡了的时候，叫我醒厚。。。”

我2am睡，她2am起身做事情到早上。。。。天啊，这个就是读我建筑系的朋友。。。。


每次远行，她都会把当地的纪念品买回来带给我=）我有沙巴的纪念品啦、加拿大、美国、越南、印尼的=）谢谢你，收到你在外地还把我记得的礼物，我倍感窝心。。。哈哈。。。。这次，你又远行了，希望你可以在那里学得到很多东西，阿珠一定很开心，你们把世界地图踩在脚下，把每一个地方都走一遍。（我看我是最没用的吧，哈哈。。整天把出入新加坡当作出国=P没胆去冒险）虽然很舍不得你，但没关系，期待与你再见面的那一天，要在网上常常联络啊！

我最好的好朋友=）

一路顺风。

who cares?

ya, who cares?

food craving

feel like eating expensive food.......
arh.....

whatever

initially, planned to go here, go there.....
planned to do this planned to do that.....
planned everything.....
but one last minute decision, all plans are gone...
all the expectations and hope are ruined...

maybe i am not so important that to be kept in mind..
thank you....

i broke my phone T___T

it just accidentally was fallen from my pocket....and dropped on the floor.....

now, the slide is the slide, the keypad is the keypad....two are mutual inclusive.....

not belong to each other anymore....

i am very very very very sad!!!! feel like crying nia~~~ wuwuwuwu~~~~~~~

i need to wait till august then my contract will be expired...then can only change phone ler =(

wuwu~~~~

my life had changed...

My life has started to changed. I was a happy JB kia. But everything had changed since i was graduated......
In foonyew, everyday, I went to school had lesson, every month had exams, quizzes...
I was stressed, but i had friends, teachers and happiness...
Everything had changed since I was gruaduated from fy....
I was wondering, why there is no good and famous uni at jb...and of course, kl is much more further that sg.....
due to sg uni is world ranked, i was forced to choose there...
so near yet so far...i was not able to travel everyday, so i stayed in sg...
had my life there, and only weekend can go home...
since when, i was so unfamiliarized with my own home?

in nus, i had lesson, cca and surrounded with friends.
evertthing is different
i started to have my life without the caring of my family...
slowly, i was already get used to the life
i can stay at sg alone with joyful activities,
i can youtube for the whole day,
when i was hungry, i can ask any of my friends to accompany me for dinner...
we had fun, we talked about exams,lectures, bf and cca...
i always stayled late, until 2am for msn, until 4am for supper and until 6am for chit chatting...
the only concern that time was exams, boring meetings and projects.
other that this, i was happy...and my life was filled with joyful
but
everything had changed since i was graduated from nus....
i was granted to stay at home for 3 months after 3 years leaving...
searching for jobs....and had the relax life...

after i got the job, everyday is filled with work, colleague, ot, work, colleague, ot, work colleague, ot
work at 9am off at 9pm
no life, no leisure, no excitement... sometimes, i even dreamt of office, colleagues and ot...

meet up with friends, the discussion topics are no longer exams, lectures, bf and cca
but works, salary, how long you ot, where you work, where you rent room, branded bags, iphone, bto and marriage.....
everything had changed.....

there is no routine and willingness to go back to sg after sunday every week...but hatred...

when studying, at least i know i still can come back every week, but now...
i have started to think that how long can i stay here..
my life had changed,
but
since when
i am willing to change my life?
since when
i have started to feel that
i am not happy?

craving....

feel like eating IKEA fish n chips.....
hmm.....................

give and take

i know i broke the committment
u asked me to understand

yes, i know i am wrong....
but
please understand my situation too

if we are not close enough, i can just leave without giving u any notices, without worrying everything
i didnt have to worry that u will need to pay full amount, or nowhere to live....
but i didnt......
dun wan to make you in trouble, that's why i keep wasting my money....

but, i am in dilemma too.......
stop, u will hate me
continue, i am wasting my money

if u were me? what will you do?
not i didnt try to get used to it.....but the feeling is really not right....and my insomnia is getting serious.....
i didnt know it will happen when i was there too
i didnt know i will call off before 1 year too.....

i know u offered me... u gave up ur freedom to offer me.....
thank you....
that's why i am very guilty....
full payment is really a huge amount.....i know
but
please try to understand
for me, wasting for 9 months, is a huge amount too....

and the feeling of paying for other's sake, is terrible too...
not i am not generous of letting ur important ppl to stay
i just need some respect........
although i keep saying i do not mind, but a discussion with me before you decided will be appreciated

let's split the burden can?
i cover 3 months, u try to find the solution for the next 3 months
give and take.....
please....

life

working life is sucks.....
i am tired......
tired everyday..........
i am feeling sick of having OT.......
feeling sick of going back to sg on monday 6am only for work........
i need a break....
i miss the time when i was doing nothing, everyday sleeping fb-ing, slacking at home
the two resting days for the whole week, is not enough for me.....
i want to stay at home
i want to accompany my family my dog
i want to play
i want to enjoy my life
hang out with friends
all of this cannot be done on the only two days.......

now, the ot life started over again.....
i just pray to leave at 7:30pm.....
i dun wan to stay till 10pm anymore.....
i am tired.....

悼阿珠老师

我想用我的母语：华文，来篇写这篇文章。因为，我不想用那十分搞笑滑稽的烂英文来描写我的心情。

我既不是海崴殷龙姗鸣，写不出什么文绉绉的文章；我也不是力求上进在新加坡打拼的努力之人，英文程度根本就是说出来听不懂，写出来看不懂的烂。但是，我想以我自己的方式，来悼念我最喜欢最重要的老师。

（人老了，我害怕记忆力会退化，想在我还记得的时候，把我与老师的种种点点滴滴写出来。）

2003年，看着挂在墙上的课程表，地里科目由陈鸿珠老师指导。心里感到十分高兴，“哇，她很出名叻，我们班真幸运！”2004年，看着挂在墙上的课程表，地里科目又是由陈鸿珠老师指导，“哇，太好了，我们又可以看到阿珠了！”2005年，嗯嗯。。。又是阿珠叻。。。“难道这真的是孽缘？”

1月24号，星期天，下午时分，美君打电话给我，声音是抽泣的，我心想：‘怎么啦？跟润宗吵架了吗？”她说：‘陈鸿珠老师过世了。’

我的反应是：‘蛤？’

‘几时的事？’

‘中午的时候。’

然后我忍不住，哽咽了起来，竟然问了一个很白痴的问题，‘那。。。怎么办？’

她回答说：‘不知道。。。。。’

之后的话，我完全不记得了。。。

同时，我听到了嘟嘟声，应该是有另外一通电话正在播进来，是姗鸣。他也告诉我老师过世的消息。

看来，这是真的吧。。。

我的眼泪，一直在掉。。。不敢去回想以前的画面，以前老师的循循善诱。。。我怕我会崩溃。

傍晚，我们大家都决定去中华工会，瞻仰遗容。大伙儿的心情都很沉重，也努力的克制自己的情绪，深怕会影响到他最亲爱的家人。

从停车场往绵裕庭7号的途中，我忍不住，哭了。没办法控制得哭了。整理了情绪，继续往前走。看到了老师的遗照，依旧好灿烂好美丽的笑容。世光跟我们说，要做好心理准备，因为老师的容貌，变了。。。

我们到柜台处给了帛金，看到了师丈。他的鼻子，是深红色的。眼角还有着泪水。我的心理，好难受。看着翊轩，感到好心酸。看着陈虹冰老师，脸上满是泪痕，可是还是很坚强的强忍着泪水把一柱一柱的香烛分给我们。上完香，我们一批人，探望阿珠去了。阿珠躺在一个木头做的长方盒子里面，里面的她真的变了。。。

好憔悴，病魔把她折磨成这个样子。好心痛。。。但是我知道，老师一直都很努力的跟它打仗。老师真的真的很勇敢。

当我从中华公会离开前往关卡的时候，心情还很平静。可能因为有明圣的陪伴吧，一直跟他讲话，就没有多余的时间想太多。可是当我一个人搭巴士的时候，我的眼泪无法控制的掉了。头脑里满满都是和老师的回忆。到家后，看了facebook group老师那张很漂亮的照片，我崩溃了。第二天，上班的时候，我用电话上网，看了facebook里面，大家的status，又哭了。老师应该很不喜欢我吧。。动不动就一直哭一直哭。。哈哈。。。

星期三的追思会，听说有七百多个出席者，每一个人都是热泪盈眶的。听到老师的文章，她爱听的歌曲，还有他的家人的致词，虽然叶辅财主任说我们的追思会不能有眼泪，只能有欢笑。但是，谁忍得住呢？当大家在回忆老师的种种点滴，又谁可以笑着看待呢？很开心地听到师丈说，他和小轩会好好的过下去，也很心酸的听到陈虹冰说，老师每次都花很多心思制作奖卡、每次都觉得很不好意思的麻烦其他人帮忙制作奖状。那时我也有那么一刻地认为，其实这些都不是很重要。。。对不起，对不起。。。我真的真的觉得，拥有奖卡、奖状、奖品，真的真的很重要！！！我能拥有这些奖状，我真的感到无比的荣幸，至少，我可以拥有老师留下来给我的东西，我可以看着奖卡，感受到老师的热忱。文商二的大家，都出席了，人数可是比来同学会的人还要多叻。。老师啊，你走的时候，还要把我们大家都聚在一起。。。真有影响力叻！

星期四的出殡，我们八点多就到了。最后一次的上香，最后一次的瞻仰遗容。其实我并不是看老师最后一眼，而是让老师看我。哈哈。。。老师的躯体，已经开始发黑了，比之前更憔悴。但是在我眼中，就如云忠师丈所说，老师还是依然那么美丽。我把花瓣从花圈采下，每采一片，就默默地祈祷，希望老师可以去到满是花海的天堂。老师，我要送你了，陪你走完你在人间的最后一程。。。

长方木头盒子，被抬去灵车了。当我看见你的遗照从灵堂被摘下的一刻，我的心又酸了。跟着灵车走，随手把花瓣往地上撒，我不敢把花瓣撒得太快，我深怕大家都在前面把花撒完了，后面的路怎么办？后面没有花怎么办？我要铺出一条花路，指引老师上路的花海。所以，到达火化厂时，我才大把大把的把袋子里的花豪迈的撒出，因为后面路上的花，太少了。。。

念完经，长方盒子被推进去了，突然有同学喊了一声，‘起立，行礼，谢谢陈鸿珠老师！’既陌生，又熟悉的一句话。有谁可以忍住眼泪不哭呢？是的，谢谢你，真的谢谢你。。谢谢陪伴我们，疼惜我们关心我们的你。能有幸的被你教了三年，不是我人生中最大的福气吗？看着小轩跪在火化厂外，头很低很低。小轩ok吗？突然间，我看到他用手背，擦了擦眼睛。。。我不知道，我又崩溃了，哭得很惨很惨。不舍得，真的不舍得。突然脑海里闪过一个念头，"不要走老师!"不行不行，不行不行！！！‘老师，好走，老师好走！老师必须好好的上路。老师啊。。。我送你走上天堂路！我们会永远爱你的！’用花水清洗了手，仪式完毕。恳切地希望，我们可以有空就来拜访老师，让她看看我们。宽中生们都走了，不小心听见了淑芳对他们的嘱咐，‘小心，彼此照顾着彼此’看来老师们也没有那个心情一个一个的管他们了，他相信来拜祭阿珠的学生， 是不会趁机逃学的。老师啊，你看看你，多么有影响力啊！

和大家不一样，很多人都说，他们喜欢地理，而且是老师让他们发现自己对地理的兴趣的。然而，我不一样。我不喜欢地理。我不明白，为什么我每次读到半死的时候，考出来的成绩依然是那么不尽理想。虽然比赛很好玩，很有趣，可是我不是很喜欢，因为每次我都害怕答不出来，怕指地图时指不对，害了自己的组　，感到有点压力。我真的是永远都搞不懂地理在讲些什么。所以，我对统考没有什么希望。统考前一个礼拜，老是说，如果有不明白的，就去问她。老师会竭尽所能的帮忙我们。
于是，我跟老师说了，我说，‘我真的不明白为什么我都答不对，成绩永远都是最低的。’老师说，‘没关系，不要有压力，我会慢慢教你的’ 在读书周的时候，老是特地从家里赶来学校，为我补了三个小时的习。我什么也没有给她，没有请她吃饭，也没有表示什么，就默默地接受了老师的帮助。我还记得，老师是一面吃着面包，一面为我补习。我一直记得一件事，也感到十分惭愧。在补习其间，老师说，她的睫毛掉进眼睛里了，老师一直揉一直揉她的眼睛，好像很辛苦的样子。可是当时的我，不知道该如何反应，觉得有一点尴尬。结果，我竟然说：老师，‘为什么XXX是这样形成的呢？’ 我竟然没有关心老师的眼睛，反而继续地问老师问题。虽然这是一件很小的事情，可是直到现在，我都感到十分内疚。为什么我会那么无情的不关心热心帮助我的老师呢？唉~~~~补完习后，我真的好象开窍了，我开始明白什么是地理，为什么这样这样，会变成这样这样。。。开始有信心了起来。走课室里走出来时，我频频向老师说，‘谢谢老师，谢谢老师。’她却挥了挥手说，‘哎呀，不用客气啦！小事’
老师啊，这可不是小事啊，你用了你宝贵的时间，连早餐也没吃就为我补了好几个小时的习。我只知道，我那时的心情真的是无比的感激。看着你走回办公室，说是要等下一批的学生来询问，还要完成一些首尾的工作。老师啊，我真的觉得你很伟大。。。老师，我的地理统考，都是你的功劳啊!我之所以可以拿到A1，都是你的帮忙而得来的。至今，虽然离统考已过了五年，我的心里，还是对你感到非常地感激，依然没有忘记。

记得高三那年的团朗，其实，我并不了解诗歌的内容，只是他们叫我扮演一个压力大的人，我就扮演那个压力大的人。比赛当天，我们第一次在班上表演的时候，就是给老师看的。当我把在腿上厚厚的书推倒的那刻，我哭了。仿佛，我就是扮演着我自己。戏完了，听到如雷贯耳的掌声，那是班上给我们的掌声。抬起头，以为会看到老师满意赞叹的脸孔，结果，看到的却是老师担心的表情。老师说:‘秀娟，你真的是这样的人吗？很大压力的话要讲，不要压抑，我看了很心痛！’说真的，这个角色就只有我最能胜任了，因为，无可否认的，我正在扮演着我自己。我认为，大家都只会讨论着我们待会儿是否会得奖，讨论着我们应该从哪里再加强、哪里再进步。可是，万万没有想到，竟然会有人因为我的表演而发自内心的担心着我。她，就是我的阿珠老师。

毕业后，我们去老师家探望老师，老师说，她很喜欢我送给他的小狗吊饰。我呆了一阵。。。‘诶。。。。老师，我有送你东西咩？’

她说：‘有啦，那只小狗你放在我的桌上，压着你送给我的卡吗！我儿子很喜欢，可是我很宝贝，我都不让我儿子动叻’

‘诶。。。不是我送的是吗？’

‘你这个没良心的，害我宝贝得要死，竟然都不记得是不是你送的！’

老师还特地从楼上把小狗拿下来让我认领，可是我真的不记得了。哈哈。。。后来想想，可能应该是我送的吧，因为老师帮我补习，我非常感激，我就买了一只不起眼的玩具当作谢礼送给她。。。还蛮合理的。。。哈哈。。。但是我真的忘了。。。不管是不是我送的，就让我自私一次吧，就让我成为那只小狗的买者吧，那只老师宝贝得要死的小狗就当作是我送的吧。至少，老师会记得的，她在天上也会记得我送的那只小狗的，对吗？

老师说，她很喜欢看黄真伊，每一次看都会哭。。。她很喜欢黄真伊的初恋故事，很纯洁、很感动。可是我每次都是点点头，哦哦哦的回应她。。。老师啊，下次，我发誓，我会很认真地跟你讨论黄真伊的。。。如果有下次的话。。。

我记得，老师有一次跟我说，她不想让学生们看到她那脆弱的一面，她不喜欢学生们知道她生病的样子，因为，在学生们的面前，她要成为一个灯塔。永远的照亮着前方，指引学生们方向。她希望成为我们的太阳，永永远远的就是那么的温暖，永永远远的照耀着我们。可是她生病了，太阳好像亮不起来了，她很难过。。。我对老师说，‘老师啊，太阳也是有下山的时候，不是吗？偶尔休息一下，阴霾一下，不用紧的啦。’老师还是很有定力地说，成为我们的太阳，就是她的梦想啊！老师啊，到现在，即使你现在变成了天使，你还是我们的太阳叻！你看你有多厉害！

姗鸣说，她到现在，好像还听到老师在叫我们名字的声音。她说，老师只有在叫我的名字的时候，会加一个‘啊’字。。。哈哈。。对啊，老师很喜欢‘秀娟nah~~~~秀娟nah~~~~’的叫，好像我又有什么事情被她捉到，必须要向他忏悔一样。。。哈哈哈。。。这些，我也还记得 =）。。。希望我永远永远都不会忘记老师叫我的名字的声音，拜托拜托。。。

老师曾经对我说，‘秀娟nah，那天我很想打给你叻，可是不知道你是不是在新加坡。’

‘哦？zomo leh？有什么事吗？’

‘想你咯。’

‘aiyoo，酱想我啊？’

‘是咯，最近心情不是很好，很想听你讲笑话咯。。。’

听到这里，我的心都酸了，谢谢你，谢谢你让我觉得我的笑话原来不是废话。。。第一次觉得，身为一个搞笑人物原来那么有用。原来，我的一句话，可以让你心情愉快起来，我真的很感动。。。可是，又为老师的不开心感到担心。。。默默地希望老师的身体可以好起来。。。我们一直都知道老师身体不好，但是我们不过问，只是相信老师。。。老师说没事，就没事。。。真的真的很勇敢。。。

遗憾不止一个，我看我真的是最没有良心的学生了。姗鸣他们出国时，都会买一份纪念品给老师。我呢？明明在美国看到断层，也特地用了相机拍了起来，明明就是要洗出来给老师，当作明信片的，可是。。。我懒惰，到现在也没有做。。。唉，对不起啊，老师。。。我又忘了。。。

上次探望老师的时候，师丈开了卡拉ok，老师也唱了一首歌给我们听。孙燕姿的‘我不难过’，老师，我不难过。因为我知道你变成了最美丽的天使，最耀眼的星星在天上守护着我们。我们不哭了。=）

你说的：不说告别的话，我们一定会再相聚的。。。

陈鸿珠老师，一个我们毕业生出国留学都会寄信息，叫我们好好照顾自己的老师，我们永远爱你。你永远活在我们的心中。姗鸣说的，这就是‘永生’。。。

my life

OT everyday
this is my life
OT till 8:30pm to 9pm everyday.....
but i am glad that, at least i dun have to OT till 11pm...
(but i dunno whether need to start OT till 11pm next week or not T__T)

wisdom tooth surgery

monday i took Off In Lieu, then went for a wisdom tooth surgery
thanks gx to tell me about the surgery's procedure the day before, so that i had a mentally prepared before the surgery
when my dentist expert told me she felt that the surgery was extremely difficult to perform after seeing my xray, my legs were never stop shaking...... =_=
she said my wisdom tooth was 90 degree askew
and two angle somemore.....
if she didnt manage to pull two angle together out, then that will be a huge problem -_-
that was a horrible experience......
i think i had a huge amount of narcotic injections....
she gave me a mirror to see her surgery
i rejected....then she said, this surgery is much more brilliant and interesting than andy lau's concert lo.....and much more expensive somemore....
then i saw the last part, when she took out my broken teeth...
horrible......
luckily the surgery was successful, she manage to pull the two angle out....
i was given 3 days MC...
that night i went to singapore to see clinic
and asked for singapore clinic listed MC
because Maybank doesnt recognise malaysia's
damn it
because i took leave on monday, so i just asked for 2 days MC
i back home the next day
my chin is swollen
like i have double chin like that
and painful!!!!! not comfortable at all =(
damn it!!!!!!!
and now it is still swollen =(
dont feel like going to work ler =(
although i have already got 5 days break, sat-wed...and only need to start two days work this week
but
i still dun feel like going ler =(

pending

today i took half day leave
super shuang!!!!!
cuz the morning time is super easy to pass
1:30pm then can leave company
woohoooooo!!!!

i went ica....to extend my temporary employment pass
.................
15 mins then settled....
totally dun need to take leave lo..wasted!!!!!!!!!!

then i asked the officer about my pr application status
me: "so, how is my application status?"
officer: "pending"

I DUN KNOW IT IS STILL PENDING MER?????? redundant!!!

gateaway

i need a gateaway even in weekdays!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i also wish to watch movie, eat dinner, walk around after work =(

did i sleep yesterday???

I have no idea
How did I get thru yesterday night
Did I sleep? Or didn’t?
Seems like I did sleep……..but
I didn’t have the feeling of sleeping unconsciously…..
Normally, when I fell asleep, I will have no feelings until the next day I woke up
But yesterday, I think that I was only lying on the bed……didn’t fall asleep….
I can sense very clearly that I know I didn’t sleep the whole night……
But the weird thing is, if I want to categorize its into imsomnia…I don’t think so….

When I suffer insomnia, no matter how hard I tried, my brain will think a lot a lot a lot of things
And time past very slow…..
And I have a very clear mind!

When I fall sleep….i have one kind of satisfaction after I wake up…..
And the procedure of sleeping is unconsciously…..i will not even know what did I do during sleeping (for example: turn around, grab or kick the blanket….)

But yesterday, neither of the situation happnened……
I have a very clear mind, I know that I didn’t sleep
But
Time past very fast!!!
I dunno how did I get through of it?
I lied on bed at 11pm
The time I looked at the clock is already 3am…..what did I do for the 4 hours in between?
Totally had no satisfaction after "woke up"
I didn’t sleep
Seems like my brain was moving….
There were many stories inside my brain…..
I dunno whether those stories are "real dream" or "the daydreaming I created myself" ?

Ps: the difference between dream and daydreaming is
Dream is created unconsciously……
Daydreaming is "think too much by myself", like I create a story and think a lot a lot a lot of things while I was awake and brain is consiously working….

I have the feeling that "I created the story myself" while I was lying on the bed….
But my brain is not tat clear that how did I create it? Like the stories is continued automatically…..i didn’t have to think more about it….and I only can sense that I wasn’t sleeping!

My brain was very clear till 4am,
only till 5am, I finally had the feeling of sleeping…..(sleep unconsciously)
Bit I woke up at 5:45am…as I followed my dad came out from jb to sg…..

And actually I felt a bit sleepy now….
So
Did I sleep? Or didn’t?

Or, is this a situation as
I didn’t sleep well?

Or, the situation of….
I can sense that I was dreaming?
(cuz normally we will dream unconsciously right?)

people WANTED!!!!!!

Ng Huey Wen
Loh Pei Yoke
Tan Boon Yen
Tan Chip Ying
Teh Yilynn
Yap Shan Ming

Hey gals.....we have never met since my graduation....... that was already 3 months ago....
(except shanming, we did meet at ahzhu place.......,and yilynn...we've never met for more than 8 months -_-)

I MISS YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHEN SHALL WE MEET??????????

quota full

verline's bf told me that
this year PR application quota full....
his friend's friend alr work in singapore for 1 year
his salary is 4k...
but applied PR, fail...

then i think maybe i am from local U, and got the invitation letter....
shouldnt be any problem....

but just now huey wen told me that
our seniors said, the application start from june onwards,
all been rejected.....
even we are from local U and invitation letter....

because singapore PR quota is full for this year......


shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want to quit de ler!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i need to work at 4am

i was informed today....
i was assigned to work on 22/11/2009
that day is sunday
and
4am
for our mainly disaster testing....

i am the only one in my department to go for the testing....(i think)
at 4am on a sunday...

what else can i say besides...
DAMN IT!!!!!

气管敏感

i always suffering coughing...
and i believe most of my friends notice it....
if i start coughing, i will continue coughing for 3 months....
so i always suspect i am suffering hundred days coughing...
which means i will recover automatically after coughing for 100 days....

yeah, i was right.....i went to consult doctor...
as my colleague all told me that i am spreading the virus to the office...
and i really wish to take MC....so i went to consult doctor...
if u all know me well, it is really hard for me to go consulting doctor...
haha
i just do not like, and feel afraid....
but, now working liao, MC really important...better go...

doc told me that i am suffering windpipe allergic....maybe due to my nose allergy and easy to get flu.... that's why i keep coughing... and the coughing doesnt sound like the normal coughing...
so drinking cough syrup will not cure....
he gave me 7 packets of medicine and 1 cough syrup.... 38 SGD, damn ex T^T

the main concern is, one of the medicine is lei4 gu4 chun2...
that is the medicine that cause chenliping fat T____T
i must control my appetite these few days...worried worried.....

friday MC, sat, sun free...and monday off in lieu....
4 days free =D

actually...i am very happy that i was on MC!!! no need to work!!! hurray!!!!=DDDDD